I was due to write this on 7th Feb, but the devil tried to sabotage me in different ways. The good thing about his sabotage is that it gives the centre stage for God’s hand to do wonderful, amazing things that make you smile like a Cheshire cat. I now have two good reasons to remember 7th Feb always.
7th Feb 2023 was the day for my live coaching assessment which was to take place on zoom. I had to coach a volunteer client in the presence of my supervisor, share a document during the zoom and take notes for the volunteer client to see their responses so it could get them to set some goals later on in the session. Well, my laptop charger decided on that morning it was not going to charge, meaning I was not going to do all I had planned to do on that day especially the live assessment. The assessment could also not be cancelled if it was less than 24 hours to the time.
This is when my drug-dealing (legal) ways came to the rescue. I used one phone to access the zoom, one phone to make notes and got a tablet to also access the zoom to enable me to see the volunteer client and vice versa and another phone to time the session. I had done a practice run and discovered when using the zoom mobile app, it didn’t show your face when you shared a document. I also learnt that I can’t or don’t know how to edit a document on the mobile app in the same way you can on the laptop. I had to think of ways to enable the session to go as its normally supposed to despite these challenges.
Genesis 18:14 says “is anything too hard for the Lord” and this is my go to verse in times of stress. This time, I was so stressed I don’t even think I was in a position to go to my go to verse. I was stressed. I prayed saying God I know I am not supposed to be stressed but I am stressed. After this, the idea of setting up the phones and tablets came to me. I emailed my supervisor to give her a heads up of what was happening in case she wondered what kind of ghetto type coaching session was this?! She didn’t reply before the assessment was to start.
Yes, another option would have been to buy another charger. This is all good when you’re in a place amazon prime can deliver may be on the same day or you can order click and collect. But actually by the time I was discovering this mechanical default, it was 3 hours to the assessment so if I was to get a new charger I would have to go to the store. Again this is all good if there is a designated store, that is trustworthy, that I can get to in good time. At that moment I was on a hill far away, not near where the old rugged cross stood but definitely wanting deliverance all the same. By the time I figured out where to go, try and see if they have the charger in stock, come back on the rocky “road”, I would have been late for my assessment which could not be cancelled.
Praise God even though there didn’t seem to be an option indeed there was a way around it. I joined the zoom on both devices. My supervisor tried to see if she could help me come up with a better way. There wasn’t and the show had to go on, because in real life things like this can happen and you can’t let the client down. The volunteer client joined the session. I explained the difficulties, what the session was about and ended with it will be a good session. This was definitely a fake it to make it statement because I really had no clue how this thing was going to go. In the spirit of keep calm and positive, I said those words which ended up to be the truth, the truth and nothing but the truth, as God is my witness and saviour. And yes I passed the assessment. God is good, God is Greater, God is the Best.
One thing I have learnt in the last two years is that in the end everything works out. It really does. This brings me to the 2nd reason why I will remember Feb 7th. In November 2021 I had resigned, giving my 3 months’ notice, knowing by faith I would find the role that would take me to the next chapter. Such a big move, I certainly prayed and fasted over it. Faith without works is dead so I dedicated each day to applying for a variety of roles. December came and I sort of dreaded it because it meant January was coming closer which meant my last date Feb 7th was soon coming. I was not seeing any fruits to my labour.
The truth is I would not see any fruits to my labour for 6 months. When I say I laboured to search for my next role, I truly laboured almost to the point of burn out, which is crazy because that was one of my many reasons for taking the leap of faith. The journey of what happened from November 2021 to Sept 2022, when I could finally see where I was going, is something I have to give its own designated story time. However, I can certainly share the testimony from that period.
In that uncertainty of where am I going, what did I say earlier? In the end everything works out. The period of uncertainty ended when in September 2022 I finally found what I wanted to do. I found out where I was going not just in the short term, but where I was going in terms of life purpose. This was a long term prayer answered and as I reminisce on how that all unfolded I cant help but say God is Good, God is Greater, God is the Best!
In that period of no longer having a permanent role and all the perks of it, I can say confidently and proudly how I had my own Abraham moment in that, he didn’t know or see how God would provide, but in the end God provided the ram in the thicket and all was well. In this one year as I look back, I can say that in my self-employed era, I have never lacked because who is like God! He never sleeps and is faithful especially and even when you don’t see HOW? In the natural I should have lost out on so many things but when you have the super-natural God walking before you, behind you, on your sides, forget expecting great things, you will live and feel great things that you never thought were possible or even dreamed about.
If you told me last year that the following year, I would be nicely enjoying my 2nd month in my beautiful, HOT, home country, a luxury I did not even have or could afford in my permanent role, I would have said that’s a lie. In fact, the truth is a lot of things have happened to me in this one year that if I was told I would be doing, I would say “that’s a lie”. God is not a man that he should lie, so if he says he will do exceedingly and abundantly, it is not a lie. When he says he will bring beauty for ashes, it is not a lie. I heard a sermon the other day that said “God can only do Marvellous things” and this has been so true for me in this year.
Why it is so special that I am realising these truths is because there was a difficult period where I felt I was really putting in so much effort but I was not getting anything at all. When I say at all, I mean at all. I would continue because giving up wasn’t an option but I would still get nowhere! It was frustrating, greatly dispiriting and tears were shed because I could not understand. Faith without works is dead, I am working so hard, stepping out of my comfort zone, but I’m getting nowhere. Did I say I was getting nowhere? I was getting nowhere, I need you to understand that. And this is why the Excellent Book says lean not on your understanding and walk by faith and not by sight. By sight I was going nowhere, but toto I was certainly going somewhere and God knew it and most importantly was going to see to it personally that I get there!
This explains why I received beautiful help from strangers who were willing and eager to help me as if they were being paid £6million an hour. This explains how so many things have just fallen into place. This explains how I have not burnt out to get certain things. They have come to me the way a butterfly can just come and land on your nose. This is what the God of Shadrack, Meshack and Abednego does. Even when you are in your feelings, pouting and having a tantrum how God is not coming through, he doesn’t hold that against you. Thank you, Jesus! He shines his face upon you and all you endeavours.
Now that he has brought me to this place, I can honestly say I am walking knowing if he is the one who brought me here, it means that just as he provided before, in this place here he is definitely going to provide again. I don’t have to worry and I can honestly say I am not worried. Yes! Me who is a natural worry worrier. I am not fearful because I know with my eyes and heart that everything works out. That attitude is what confirms to me God is in this place I am in. I am not only doing new things, but I am approaching things in a new way, and I love it. Let it be clear it is not me leading myself in doing things a new way, this is just the Divine teacher and counsellor, teaching me and counselling me on how to lead the life I deeply desire. A life of peace, calm, acceptance and victory. I’m getting there slowly and surely.
I can see in the last two days when I have come back to the city, having prayed for God to help me change my attitude to the things that have bothered me, he is answering that prayer. I am confident I will have victory over the things that have held me, or I’ve held to which are not serving me anymore. Victory in a living a life that I have not known and definitely one where my best days are definitely ahead of me.
What I am saying is in this one year that has gone, God is Good, God is Greater, God is simply the best. After the storm, I have not only seen the sun but the rainbow. The rainbow is so beautiful, I am not looking at the storm, I am not looking back and in fact I refuse to look back. This is another sign God is definitely with me in this place because sometimes when I close a chapter, I may still get the book and look at it. This time, that chapter is closed, not being revisited and I am moving onwards and upwards.
Why? I have a Friend, a mighty and sovereign friend who has superior plans for me, plans for good and to certainly prosper me. Not because I’m better than anyone else but because he is better than anyone and everyone combined. It’s just his nature, he has a heart like that, that continually and consistently, desires and loves to give and bless. He doesn’t have a quota, so when he gives, he Gives. When he Gives, he Exceeds. This is why in 2023 if I say God is Good, God is Greater, God is the best, I am speaking from my one-year anniversary of the great and spectacular things he has done for me, yet again. Things I would never have dreamed of.
I pray in 2023, you will sing an even better song than I.
Related verses
Gen 18:14, Isaiah 41:10, Genesis 22:13-14, Isaiah 61:3
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