This year has been a tough year. I started the year having resigned my job in November 2021. Something I hadn’t planned to do. I took the greatest leap of faith in my life to date. I didn’t know where I was going. I didn’t know how the journey would go. In fact, in Jan 2022 I had written a testimony piece (I hadn’t even started blogging by then!) of how God came through for me in the nick of time. How he gave me a job, just before working my final date. Ya, God had other plans for me and they were NOT going to work out the way I wanted, NEVERTHELESS here I am on 29th Dec saying they worked out just as they needed to work out and I do not regret a single thing. Praise be to God!
I don’t regret resigning without a clear plan. What I didn’t know was a lot of people have don’t it this way and have ended up just fine. What I encourage you to do is pray about it because when your idea is approved it means God will work out every detail in your great favour and that is my testimony as we end the year. I have had such tremendous growth in this year that I haven’t seen in my previous years combined! Just in this one tough year, at the end of it, I can testify my fav slogan and the truth and don’t argue with me “God is Good, All the Time”.
During this tough (it really has been) year, there were many times I was frustrated because I was making so much effort and not seeing the fruitful outcome I was working for. When I tell you it felt like I was going nowhere, it really felt that way. Thank God, all that glitters is not gold. Though I felt like I was not being fruitful, in fact I was. Though I felt like I was going nowhere, OH! Let me tell you I know in my spirit; I am going somewhere. Don’t ask me where. All I know is the way things have unfolded and now with hindsight, I know I am going somewhere, and that God’s hand is already there, Amen! He has already provided, and I am praying to have continued obedience and trust that if he says do this or go here, like he told Abraham, I will pack my saddle especially when it seems like a ridiculous ask. With God there’s no ridiculous ask it is simply a Faith ask.
This year I have seen with my own eyes what it means to “Go with God”. People have been so amazingly kind and generous. I’ve asked myself why they’re helping me in this way, yet I can’t repay them. Then I quickly realise who is behind it. No one but the Mighty Creator, Giver and Solver of All things. He has created connections for me that are just divine, and no one can tell me its because of my years of experience in my field, my LinkedIn or this or that. It is God who just simply wants to make me smile and remind me he is walking with me, is not leaving me any day, working for my good and has been hearing my prayers from 1965 (I wasn’t even born then). What an awesome, cool, and loving God.
He has and is preparing me for my future. For now, I don’t know what that future looks like exactly but pap! If it’s learning how to create a fun engaging video, check! If its learning to create a CV the way recruiters want and most of all having the spirit and willingness to do that (even though this is the year my CV would have loved to slap me because of the number of times I have rearranged that thing) check! If its learning to cane row/corn row/shuka lines pap! I’ve done it (ok continuing working progress) and the biggest part is the spiritual growth I have seen.
This is the special one that God has been working on for me and I’m so grateful. It’s the one that’s been responsible together with the strength of God, for allowing me to be sitting here 2 days before the year ends, reflecting in gratitude as opposed to complaining and lamentation, which by the way I can. God has allowed me to see it as one big testimony with many testimonilets, that have prevented me from rotting or wilting. It is only because of God’s K.P.M.G (see K.P.M.G post) that rather than looking at the year for what it’s been emotionally, that I can look at it with a smile, magzmum gratitude and most of all hope. Hope that so much good is coming. Hope that so many prayers are being answered even now as I write this. It’s only that my little understanding and limited vision can’t see it yet. Just because I can’t see it doesn’t mean its not going to happen. Oh but it magnificently will.
That father of lies has been trying the whole year to fill my head and spirit with his falsehoods (insert Queen Mother of Black Panther when she tells Killmonger he is lying at marker 2:32 https://youtu.be/4MVQXdtrEQM). If its not trying to tell me because I can’t see HOW things will work out, that means it won’t work (LIES!) or comparing myself to others and feeling like I should have figured things by now (LIES!) or should have gone far ahead by this time in my big age (LIES!). Keeping the details of how I feel about my journey because I’m scared, I’ll be perceived in negative way (LIES!) Come to find out so many of us reach a point where we want to do something PURPOSEFUL with our lives, but we don’t know what that is, how it looks like and so many of us are just winging it and that is ok! This was a discussion on podcast I was on (by my wonderful niece) titled, wait for it, wait for it…Just Winging it (@just_winging.it).
If you have a Powerful Planner & Purpose Maker who sits high on his throne, can never be removed, can never be impeached, can never be indicted, the one who nothing is too hard for, tell me why you have to figure things out when he is forever in office?! As I said before he has been answering and setting up things for me from 1965, when I don’t even think my parents even knew each other. So, if he knows all things and has been setting things up for my good (and just because we don’t see it doesn’t mean good isn’t going to happen or if a negative happens that doesn’t mean it can’t be converted for our good) then I can end the year with a smile of hope and take off any set expectations on how things should work out. This has been a great challenge for me but is another testimony of this year I have always attached expectations to…oh my goodness everything. Then shock on horror it doesn’t work out that way. Now, it is so freeing to just allow things to happen. Acceptance is another new motto of mine so I can let God be God and do his thing. What’s mine is always going to be mine. Full stop no comma no dash. So with that I can start 2023, the year of my big birthday, with hope that everything really does work out. Negative feelings, phases, emotions, trials are only for a season. It wont last! Hallelujah!
Most of all if I have learnt that if I have Jesus, then I have everything. I am throwing out my previous affirmation statements because in that everything I have because of having Jesus, I will get All those things epu! (swipe your index finger over your mouth) I’m affirming anyway, plus more than I can ask think or imagine. Human terms will say you don’t have a job, so you’re lacking, you don’t have money, so you’re lacking, you’re not married so you’re lacking, you don’t have this or that you’re lacking. LIES! Once I have Jesus, I have access to the whole world! Tangibly it may look like (and looks are very deceiving) I don’t have something, but internally, I have God who can easily tell a storm, shhhh! ok he said “Peace, Be still” and it obeyed. So, me who is made in his image, if I say I have everything through him, is it possible? Off course, with God NOTHING is impossible.
And here’s one big testimony of my 2022 of how with God nothing is impossible. I recently went to my late cousins resting place, the one whose been patiently waiting for the resurrection since last year. I always feel sombre just as I approach her resting place. Since she started waiting patiently for the resurrection, 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 has been my go to verse to help me look at things in as close as God’s way as I humanly can. The truth that I chose to focus on when people go to sleep and wait for the resurrection is that they who died in Christ will wake up and it is not the end. Even that one is a season of not seeing them but my goodness! One day! What a day of rejoicing that will be and what a miracle it will be to see all our loved ones wake up and be joined to Jesus in the clouds.
This truthful perspective has helped me such that this time when I went to her resting place, I found that I was not filled with dread, or sadness. I said to myself, what a miracle it will be when she wakes up and we see her again. That made me smile and I was joyful in a situation that I should NOT be joyful in. This is what I am learning this year and is actually the testimony of my life. Though things won’t go to plan and for me it mostly doesn’t, I am finally coming to a place where I am ok with it because I can see from the example of this year, Alas! God is doing things that I won’t be able to explain. How do you go to a gravesite and be joyous and hopeful! Only God and the way he has been working to help me look at things in a way that I remind myself, there is always hope, He always wants to make me smile, if I’m not he will certainly find a way, the negatives are a season, only a season and in the end it all comes together for my good, because he is a cool and unconditionally loving and Multiplicatory (I don’t think that’s English but you know what I mean) Grace giving God.
I pray as the year ends and the new one starts, that you see for yourself the wonders of what God can do in your life in just 1 year. Please move out the way and let your mouth drop. It is all very possible. Leave the HOW? to God. You just believe even if you don’t see. Because guess what you are not supposed to see. A miracle is a miracle because you haven’t seen or dreamt it ever. So how do you expect to see what you’ve never seen friend?
I pray for exponential trust and obedience to God to walk by Faith and NOT by sight, because going by 2022, I will NEVER see what God wants to do till I let him do it.
Related Verses
1 Thessalonians 4: 1-18, John 15:4, 2 Corinthians 5:7, Deuteronomy 31:8
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