All In A Week

miss_tpa

Dec 2, 20237 min read

Updated: Dec 19, 2023

Every single day of this last week of November, has had a win if not two. It has been the best week of my life in my working life. Did I get lots of money? Did I get lots of clients? Speaking of clients its just dawned on me I talk of my journey of building my practice a lot. The reason I do is because it’s the one bringing challenges and taking me way out of my comfort zone, so its bringing in plenty of testimonies. If I am being challenged in this area this means, it’s the place God is doing some very important work. Don’t ask me what work because I am also finding out just like you. I wouldn’t say it’s his best work and that may sound shocking, but I’ll share why I say this below.

It has been the best week because every single day, every door I’ve knocked on has been opened and I have been welcomed with open arms. I mentioned in the previous post, this had started to happen and got me excited. This week I have done my happy dance which varies in movement each time, every single day. I heard a sermon that said the reason we dwell on the negative and seem to forget any positive that has happened in our life, especially at the times we need to remember them, is because we don’t celebrate them as earnestly as we pray.

My happy dance is my attempt to etch an unforgettable memory in my brain, so that when things change, because that’s one certainty with life, I will remember there have been good times and in that same pattern or spirit, they will be back, even if it doesn’t look like it.

When there’s a setback it’s easy to go into a mentality of “here we go again!” or “if it’s not one thing it’s another” “I never get a break”. This is not to say calamity doesn’t happen in showers, or the realness of feeling we don’t seem to be getting a break. I was in the latter place just 2 weeks ago and in tears because I felt I was hitting a brick wall despite coming with a tractor onetime, a bulldozer another time, a bull itself the next time or a drill after that.

This is why this week has been the best week because it was evident that someone has been listening to those tears and knew I how much I needed it. Who can listen to tears? Only God. To be seen and heard by this sovereign God, at a time like this, beats any given week I have had in my working life. I have never been in this kind of season, so for him to reach out the way he has this week, is a time I pray will be unforgettable even in my nightly sleep.

This week God decided to show off for me. He knows the journey I have been on, not just in the last few years but for a long time. He knew I need a win. The beauty about God is that his win is multiple wins! Praise God! His wins are also not exclusive to major things only. He spreads the wins across the little things also.

I rang a cab company to compare their prices compared to uber, for an early morning trip. The price I was given was £10 more than Uber. I told the advisor; I would call back later. He must have known I wasn’t going to call back and quickly said “I’ll give you discount”. The Kenyan in me was very excited to hear the negotiation table was now in session. I even caught my self smile as if I was seeing the advisor face to face. I was excited!

I let him throw the first number. It wasn’t to my liking and I said “It can’t be £55”. This was even less than what Uber had quoted. He asked me to hold as he checked if one of the drivers could do it at 5am for £55. He didn’t put me on hold, I didn’t hear anyone in the background. His response was very quick even if he had allegedly checked with said driver. He then agreed to my price. Its at that point I realised I didn’t even pray about it but yet another door was opened. Amen!

I was to work with a colleague and when they brough it up, I didn’t like their approach of how we would work together. Why I say the building of my practice is not God’s best work is because I believe his best work has been the internal work, he has been doing in me and unbeknownst to me. Months ago, the way I would have reacted to this situation is express how I felt, which in some instances, does not work. What I do now, is take it to God first and tell him my lamentations of that situation. In this week that he has been showing off, I have been inspired/encouraged to ask him for things that seem out of reach. This is not the same category as BIG prayers. I asked him to give me the result I wanted, in whatever way, regardless of this colleagues approach. Shortly after saying this, as I was putting my phone on Silent, I got a message from that colleague, basically indicating I would get the result I wanted! Only God!

The internal work God has been doing in me has been responsible for taking me to a mindset of wanting to pray and fast, not for external things but internal changes that I wanted. The internal work God has been doing in me has been responsible for sustaining me through my first 40 day fast that ended today. I can tell you for sure I did not do it like Jesus did in the dessert. A week would not pass without me amazed and wondering how Jesus did it. The answer to how he did it, he is Jesus! He can do anything and through him, I have been able to do my own humanly version. I have always admired my Muslim brethren for how they fast during Ramadhan. I now have a newfound respect. The Goodness of God saw to it that he would shield me (story of my life) from the natural difficulties a fast comes with. The only hardest days were Fridays, or one time it seemed for example to be 3 o’clock for 3 hours! Nevertheless, God sustained me far greater than when I’ve done 1 week fasts. Only God!

The internal work God has been doing in me has changed the things I pray for from external to internal things. The interesting shift or revelation I also had last night was clarity on why we should pray for our enemies. For the first time I prayed for mine, whoever they are, in a genuine way. I got that if our enemies are blessed, we too end up blessed in the long run. Imagine being blessed by a known enemy! Imagine a known enemy coming to you to bless you! only God!

While I am mightily grateful for the many wins, every single day this past week, I am more mightily grateful for the internal changes I continue to see and discover. They continue to keep me in a “place of peace” as per previous post. Not only that, but they also keep me in a place of gratitude, cheerfulness, hope and faith. Faith that has made me “go there” in prayer. Faith that gives me the boldness to ask for things that apparently have been sitting somewhere in my spirit but have never prayed for. Its like I was being cheered on to ask, ask further and deeper. Things that I didn’t realise would light me up if or when God answered that prayer. Again, nothing external though it involves others. Things that you don’t even think to pray for because “what’s the point” It seems like the situation is far gone or so out there how can it be brought back here. To that I know God’s response would be “is anything too hard for me?” Thank you, Jesus!

Through these opened doors and daily wins, I have been reminded that truly truly God is with me and off course he would be. Emmanuel is known as God with us. If he is not with us then it means his name is a lie and his identity is therefore a lie. The Excellent Book says God is not a man that he should lie. So, when God says fear not, for I am with you, it is my testimony this week that it is impossible for him not to be with you in the moments you need him. It is impossible for him not to hear your tears. It is impossible for him not to bless you. It is impossible for him not to take care of you. It is impossible for him not to give you what you need when you feel your patience is running out and frustration has become the spouse that you feel you are ball and chained to, for what seems to be eternity.

My testimony is that in my moments of frustration God was not asleep and turned over comfortably in his bed. He doesn’t have one, he has a throne! It was me who was asleep, with eyes closed (as you would) and couldn’t see with my spirit that it is impossible for God not to do something for me. I am also the one with a bed. It was me who was asleep and could not see that it is impossible for God to create me to solely to reside in a place of drought. How can a God of abundance, create his child in his image, to then live in lack, scarcity or turmoil?

If he wanted me to live in a place of drought (lack of anything needed), he would have created me as sand. But he didn’t. He created me to enjoy the blessings of his full character. So, if I’m not enjoying, it’s only a matter of time before the wins come in. They are coming. They must come because he is God! In his name I am guaranteed to not only enjoy here but the bigger picture of eternity, so again the mighty wins will come. Why? Because God is Good, God is Phenomenally Great and Ultimately the Best.

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